-StepByStep|Baylee'sStory

I remember, i was five. Brown hair. Hazel Eyes. This is me;

This is acctually a really good picture. But what you dont see... Is how my dad mistreated me.

'Please Daddy! Dont!' I scream, as he grabs me by the scruff of my neck; like a mother dog would do when her puppy misbehaves. He throws me against the wall, as hard as he possibly can. I cry and cry. How am i still alive? I think to myself. He screams to me, saying i was the biggest mistake of his life, and that he never wanted me. My mom runs down the stairs, trying to stop him. He pulls out a gun, and puts it to my tempal. Im only five... What was i suppost to do? He swears, bad words to me and my mother. Hes drunk again. The fear in my eyes, doesnt stop him. He strikes punches at me, i try to dodge. I want to scream, but i cant, or he'd kill us both.

Me and my mom never did anything wrong.

By now, its like im living a horrible dream. Like a nightmare. From foster home to foster home, will i ever meet someone who will care? School has been an issue. The bruises, and scars still haunt me today. People dont dare to ask, they just stop and stare. I'm worried. How am i different then all of them? I still get bullied, they steal my twinkies. Dont let my in the restroom, without 5 dollars. At home, all the foster kids get the pizza first. How am i suppost to live on something, so little?

Im now 13. <- theres me again.
I've grown up in my looks, but im still the little girl i used to be. I dont think i will ever grow up. Sometimes i wonder where my mom is. If she's still with my dad, or if shes dead... Did she really love me? I look at the scar on my tummy, where my dad had stabbed me deeply. How could he? I was still that little girl, he held when i came outta my mommy. He said i was his angel, his baby, his sweetheart. What happened? The love had faded away. I've been alone now, for a long time. I cry to myself, nobody would hold me in their arms and say it'll be alright. Why cant i be like some the girls? With their fancy boyfriends, soulmates. They rub it in my face. Push me down, and say im ugly. I never did anything to them. Why am i so mistreated?

Today at school, theres a new boy. Hes cute. All the girls are already all over him. Im like nothing. A faded light, into dark. I dont think he noticed me, and my arms. But i noticed his. He was just like me. I was so tempted to say hi, and learn more about him. But what would happen? I'd get punched.